Down the Rabbit Hole

  • by Holly Madison
  • Narrated by Holly Madison
  • 10 hrs and 51 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion - and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key - from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former number-one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.
A spontaneous decision at age 21 transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number-one girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion - including A-list celebrity parties and her own number-one-rated television show for four years - quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn't a dream at all - and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams - and finding the life we deserve.


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Customer Reviews

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Engaging and funny

The Girls of the Playboy Mansion (as the show was known in the UK) was a guilty pleasure of mine, and I watched every episode ... up until the original three left. Of the three Holly was my least favourite. This book however has changed my opinion of her. I was sympathising and laughing throughout.
The anecdotes and the reasonings why anyone would choose to be a ‘girlfriend’ are so alien to me, but this is an aspiration for many. And of course they slept with Hef, why else would they be living with him. The post Hef era with the awful illusionist (I can’t be bothered to write his name as he isn’t worthy 😂) and her meeting her Mr Forever show that one can definitely make the best lemonade from the lemons life throws at you.
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- Elaine Adu-Poku


really nice relatable story, couldn't put it down x z x x x x x
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Book Details

  • Release Date: 23-06-2015
  • Publisher: HarperAudio