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How to Murder Your Life
- Narrated by: Cat Marnell
- Length: 11 hrs and 58 mins
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Summary
At the age of 15, Cat Marnell unknowingly set out to murder her life. After a privileged yet emotionally starved childhood in Washington, she became hooked on ADHD medication provided by her psychiatrist father. This led to a dependence on Xanax and other prescription drugs at boarding school, and she experimented with cocaine, ecstasy - whatever came her way. By 26 she was a talented 'doctor shopper' who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists into giving her never-ending prescriptions; her life had become a twisted merry-go-round of parties and pills at night and trying to hold down a high-profile job at Condé Nast during the day.
With a complete lack of self-pity and an honesty that is almost painful, Cat describes the crazed euphoria, terrifying comedowns and horrendous guilt she felt lying to those who tried to help her. Writing in a voice that is utterly magnetic - prompting comparisons to Bret Easton Ellis and Charles Bukowski - she captures something essential about both her generation and our times. Profoundly divisive and controversial, How to Murder Your Life is an unforgettable, charged account of a young female addict so close to throwing her entire life away.
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- mwb
- 07-03-17
Get a Grip, Woman!
What disappointed you about How to Murder Your Life?
It's hard to relate or have sympathy for a woman who has lived a comfortable life of enormous privilege yet can't stop messing up her life so shamelessly. I felt like shaking her and telling her to get a grip. I wasn't invested. Almost at the end and I can tell she's not going to be clean, and no redemption at the end. There's no motivation or reason, somebody will always be there to wipe her backside and insulate her from life's realities. I'm sure she's a nice person but it doesn't emerge in this story. if she really has talent, get back and rise to the top drug-free. then I'll read your follow-up and be really glad for you.
Would you ever listen to anything by Cat Marnell again?
no, unless she becomes more humble
How could the performance have been better?
it was read with feeling, like somebody who enjoyed acting out her life.
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- ania
- 16-02-17
Terrible audio narration
The story is actually ok but the author spoils it by narrating it herself. She already has a very high voice pitch and and half of the time she just shouts. It is difficult to endure. Additionally, I found the ending quite pathetic. 'Im still on drugs but Im so much healthier and happier now' - sounds silly and insulting to anybody who knows just a little bit about addiction. It feels like her piblisher forced her to finish on an optimistic note.
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- catherine
- 03-09-17
Mildly entertaining, delusional, annoying
If you are looking for an inspirational story about a woman on drugs coming through the dark times and finding herself, do not come here.
Self obsessed and delusional.
Mildly entertaining.
Please stop screaming your narration.
On a positive note, well done for writing the book.
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- Bee
- 03-03-17
Mixed
Parts are really absorbing and the honesty is refreshing. But long lists of designer names and cosmetics are tedious. Ms Marnell may have included them as an ironic contrast to the grim consequences of drug taking but they are still tedious. Also, there's no analysis of why the writer behaves as she does. Deep reflection may not have been the object of this book but it left me unsatisfied.
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- Nicola
- 25-02-17
A long way to go
Great performance. Addiction isnt about the chemical hook of drugs, its about soul holes and gaps in our social network. Cat clearly has so much potential, I hope she fills her world with good people who are true friends, that's how we recover.
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- Sue
- 12-02-18
Trivialises addiction, rather cringeworthy
It has been said that people who begin abusing drugs and alcohol at an early age, tend to stay stuck in that mindset - so it's hardly surprising that the shallow Cat Marnell writes like a teenager.
Marnell describes one ridiculous drug-fuelled event after another, and even talks about the $28,000 rehab facility her father pays for. She adds how she squandered one opportunity after another due to being completely unable to stay clean. And while you should feel sympathy for her, it's quite hard to do so.
So I can say without a doubt that I found this book rather irritating and narcisstic. After all, if Marnell wasn't a privileged white woman, she would have been in prison about 15 years ago. Her trivializing of her own addiction and frankly, bragging about her encounters, just represents how little understanding she has for the majority of other users. And though she does mention her privilege at times, it's almost an afterthought. The fact that the media have glorified her behaviour is equally despicable.
As someone who is aware of addiction, and knows those on the streets - about 90% of this book is cringeworthy. The last part is on her self realisation and it's the only honest part of the book and should have been placed as the prologue.
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- Amazon Customer
- 26-06-17
addictive listening
I had never heard of Cat Marnell before this book. As the story began I wondered whether I would find much to like about this, in her own words, extremely privileged girl's life. A life so rarified it was a million miles from.my own. And yet... there was so much I identified with. Her story is dark, light, funny and devastating. I also loved the narration, by the time the book had finished I was frantically you tubing videos of Cat because I'd fallen in love with her flippant delivery and cheery Clueless style speech. These are the kind of memoirs I want, honest, raw and with a resolution that echoes the author's own truth rather than some pat little conclusion we would wish for her.
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- J. Harris
- 05-03-17
She should move to Thailand and write some more :)
It's obviously not as sad as it would be minus the large house, wealthy parents, expensive boarding school and exciting beauty industry jobs. I don't love her life and by the end of the book I sighed audibly when she said she had reconnected with her family, that they were all alive, that she kind of ate and slept 8 hours every day. She seems like a sweet, smart girl and that is probably the reason why you end up wishing her the best. There's also a part of me, as a former biologist, that is amazed at the resilience of the human body :)
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- ian
- 21-02-17
Love it 💋
Won't be for everyone, but for a female millennial, it was incredibly relatable. Not because I can relate to her drug addiction, this book is about so much more than that- it's feminist, its achingly confessional and it's cool af.
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- Kindle Customer
- 18-02-17
How to murder your life
Cat's honesty is always refreshing and her delivery was fantastic (apart from the screams. AHHHHHHHH!)
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