"It had been hours since I ran at track practice that winter, but I hadn't bothered to shower, let alone change clothes. No, I didn't have time for that, because I had found the answer to my prayers.
"This has to be it.
"Eat all the fruit you want.
"Never get fat.
"Raw. Food. Diet."
Rachael Steil clocked in as an All-American collegiate runner; she became a girl clawing for a comeback on a 30-bananas-a-day diet. This year-long struggle with raw food ended when she realized she had to find her self-respect beyond her identity as a successful runner on a perfect diet.
Running in Silence opens the door on the secret world of eating disorders. It provides vital insights for those who don't suffer from this disease and an honest and harrowing personal story for those who do. Steil challenges the stigma of eating disorders, looks past appearance, and dives into the heart of obsession.
PLEASE NOTE: When you purchase this title, the accompanying reference material will be available in your Library section along with the audio.
©2016 Rachael Rose Steil (P)2017 Rachael Rose Steil
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3 out of 5 stars
By Sian Child on 14-03-18

An okay story, not really sure of it's way

The descriptions of Rachel's descent in to disordered eating and orthorexia was interesting, but I felt like the author wasn't really sure what she was trying to say, and so the book itself meandered and didn't really have a clear structure. The chapters asked questions that I'm not convinced the author knows the answer to.

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4 out of 5 stars
By Tabitha on 26-07-17

Heartfelt, engaging story dragged down by author narration

Author narration rarely works. I can always tell when the author is reading their own work by the emotionless, flat recitation. I know that people who have experienced the struggles themselves want to add the personal element of narration but it just doesn't work. That said, the story was interesting, sad, and heartfelt. A professional narrator or actor would have really done the story justice and portrayed the emotions and beautiful writing so well. I am happy to read a book that attacks these fad diets; fruitarianism, paleo, etc...I've seen them completely take over people's lives when people are under the impression they are doing something for their health and longevity and get completely fixated.

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5 out of 5 stars
By High Mileage ED on 19-03-18

Need more athlete ED books like this

Would you listen to Running in Silence again? Why?

I really enjoyed the book and I thought you delivered it perfectly. I prefer to listen to books read by the author, as it's more authentic and they read it with their own emotion, to which you did not disappoint. So, kudos for the effort. And I especially liked the reflection notes at the end of each chapter, I hope you do this for your next book (and I look forward to reading that one as well).

What was one of the most memorable moments of Running in Silence?

I am newly discovering of my eating disorder. While some of your experiences are different and honestly in some cases I thought to myself 'wow, that's a bit extreme...' However, you would certainly say the same to some of mine as I am very OCD and am a avid long distance cyclist and runner. I've done some incredible challenges over the years from running ultramarathons to solo double centuries on the bike. And through those beautiful and inspiring challenges, I've done some very stupid and damaging things to my body (and mind). I used to pride myself on "punishing myself" for the sake of perfection. I have experience with most of the diets you mentioned in your book vegan, raw, fruitarian, vegetarian, etc. I've done them all. And I found myself laughing to your comments while running that you felt had this "super power" becuase of your diet, becuase I often felt the same thing when I was active in those.

What about Rachael Rose Steil’s performance did you like?

Authentic, and one of a kind. Lots of info on ED but not on Orthorexia, especially from an athlete perspective.

Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?

Within the last few months, I started intermittent fasting (IF) where I wouldn't eat on Monday & Wednesdays and would restrict calories, especially on days where I wanted to eat something I considered junk (a burger, slice of cake, pancakes). So others would see me eating chocolate chip pancakes and would say things like "He can eat that because he's going to ride 100 miles on his bike tomorrow." When honestly, I'm not putting in much miles anymore, but eating disorder can easy hide behind my reputation. Your book made me keenly aware of this actually. And the biggest concern is recently, I become so addicted to maintaining weight #'s, like it literally sets my mood for the day. But when I see photos of myself, I'm honestly am a bit embarrassed. Slave to the scale but not proud of what I am becoming. And with the IF, I find the starvation, calorie restriction, then high intense activity ends up causing binge eating on the weekends, where I become so upset about the weight gain on Monday morning, I start all over again. Many of your examples in your book, helped to open my eyes to this.

Any additional comments?

So now, my recovery begins. Can't thank you enough for sharing your story and helping me understand more of my condition. We are not alone.

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