Scared Selfless

  • by Michelle Stevens
  • Narrated by Michelle Stevens
  • 8 hrs and 41 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her: She's only eight years old, posing for her mother's boyfriend, Gary Lundquist - an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Little does she know that this will become her new reality for the next six years.
Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life: She's in cap and gown, receiving her PhD in psychology - and the university's award for best dissertation.
The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to healing, recovery, and triumph that is Michelle's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless.
Michelle suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, and depression and made multiple suicide attempts. She also developed multiple personalities. There was "Chelsey", the rebellious teenager; "Viscous", a tween with homicidal rage; and "Sarah", a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date.
In this harrowing tale, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse, its subsequent psychological effects, and the best methods for victims to overcome their ordeals and, ultimately, thrive. Scared Selfless is both an examination of the extraordinary feats of the mind that are possible in the face of horrific trauma as well as Michelle's courageous testament to their power.


What the Critics Say

"A riveting memoir that takes readers on a roller coaster ride from the depths of hell to triumphant success." (Dave Pelzer, author of A Child Called "It")


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As harrowing as this book is to listen to at times it is also a source of hope, healing and unfathomable courage. Everything you think you know about MPD will be replaced with real knowledge from one who knows.
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- D. Davies


you will learn so much from this lady . I will always remember her bravery and utter honesty. I have listened to over 150 books on here and this lady moved me beyond words with her intelligence, humour and utter determination not too let the abuser win. I will carry respect throughout my life for this author. She should be very proud of what she has achieved
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- Kathst

Book Details

  • Release Date: 21-03-2017
  • Publisher: Penguin Audio