• Tweak

  • Growing Up on Methamphetamines
  • By: Nic Sheff
  • Narrated by: Paul Michael Garcia
  • Length: 12 hrs and 16 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook
  • Release date: 19-02-08
  • Language: English
  • Publisher: Blackstone Audio, Inc.
  • 4 out of 5 stars 4.1 (11 ratings)


Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise. In writing that is raw and honest, Nic spares no detail in telling us the compelling, heartbreaking, and true story of his relapse and the road to recovery. As we watch Nic plunge the mental and physical depths of drug addiction, he paints a picture of a person at odds with his past, with his family, with his substances, and with himself.
You can also hear Nic's father's perspective in his memoir:
Beautiful Boy: A Father's Journey through His Son's Meth Addiction.
©2007 Nic Sheff (P)2008 Blackstone Audio, Inc.
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Critic reviews

"Garcia becomes Sheff, offering a gritty and raw performance that demonstrates just how dire the circumstances surrounding Sheff's existence really were." ( Publishers Weekly)
"Garcia delivers a strong and commanding reading that perfectly expresses the rawness of Sheff's most personal recollections….Endlessly memorable." ( AudioFile)
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5 out of 5 stars
By Anthony M on 15-04-18

Wonderfully detailed and Intimate

Sensitive traumatic account authentically written and narrated.

Particularly intrigued by his treatment and its wider relevance.

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4 out of 5 stars
By David on 15-11-10

Painful Journey

I read David Sheff‘s book Beautiful Boy about living through his son’s Meth addiction and throughout the read, I realized that it would be great to read the son’s perspective, so I picked up a copy of Tweak by Nic Sheff.

Beautiful Boy was an incredible raw book of a parent’s journey through a child’s addiction, but I wasn’t at all prepared for the mental picture that accompanied the writings of the Nic Sheff. There is a raw, sort of, unedited perspective that is written with the mindset that the end result will be death, not life.

Tweak picks up about half way through Nic’s meth addiction – after he finds himself cut off from his parents financially, turning tricks to make ends meet so that he can score his next round of blow. He talks about doing drugs that range from marijuana to meth (his drug of choice) to heroine. Not only does he have an addiction to drugs, he also has an addiction to alcohol and sex. This book is written from the perspective of an early 20-something that seems to only care about his needs.

Much like Beautiful Boy, he highlights parts of his life that uses a day format. He talks about his stints in sobriety, some lasting as long as 18 months before the pull and allure of the drugs drag him deeper and deeper into his addiction. He lies, cheats, steals and leaves one of his girlfriends at a market for four hours while he goes to steal something from his mother’s house and then subsequently collapses in her garage.

The vividness of his account is extraordinary. When he goes into a building to score more drugs, you can feel the emotions he felt – your heart rate increases when uncertainty surrounds. This book is much more raw and unfiltering of his experiences then Beautiful Boy. This book takes you deep inside his thoughts, his actions, the words that flow from his mouth in a series of explictives. His candor in sharing these experiences is inviting, but you should be prepared for the experience.

I recommend this book, but I reco

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4 out of 5 stars
By Book and Movie Lover on 20-05-08

Drugs - the most frustrating issue in our society

I read this after I read Nic's father's book Beautiful Boy by David Scheff. This book was a good accounting, from an addict's perspective of life as an addict. At times I wanted to reach through my headphones and strangle this young author and just yell STOP! Don't do that to your family. Having read his father's account of the agony the family went through and then to read the account of the relative lack of agony the addict went through (sorry, my perspective as a parent) totally by choice was very frustrating. Drugs account for multi-generational problems in our society and if rehab has such a low percentage of success (10-20%???) then what are we to do? For years we have heard that enforcement isn't the answer, treatment is the answer .... But after reading these two books it's obvious that treatment is elusive.

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