With My Eyes Wide Open

  • by Brian "Head" Welch
  • Narrated by Brian "Head" Welch
  • 6 hrs and 5 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

He left KoRn to help himself. He went back to help others. And along the way, he nearly lost everything.
A life-changing spiritual awakening freed Brian "Head" Welch from a stranglehold of drugs and alcohol and prompted him to leave the highly successful nu-metal band KoRn in 2005. What followed was a decade-long trial by fire, from the perils of fathering a teen lost in depression and self-mutilation to the harsh realities of playing solo and surviving the shattering betrayal of a trusted friend. In this intensely inspiring redemption saga, perhaps most inspiring is Brian's radical decision to rejoin KoRn and reconcile with the tribe of people he once considered family in the metal music scene.
Brian returned to his musical roots with a clear head and a devoted heart. Though his story is wild, hilarious, and deeply poignant, the message is simple: God will love you into the freedom of being yourself as long as you keep the relationship going and never, ever quit.


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I am 33 and korn have been my favourite band since I was 15. Unfortunately, through trying to emulate them whilst playing in bands in my late teens and early twenties, I failed musically but definitely achieved stardom as a drunk with nasty drink problems. I can see how Brian could get so low in a global metal band, as I did managed it in a small local scene playing with my friends! I never suffered the hardships he did after that time whilst getting life back on track so I think it's amazing that he took the long route back to korn and not the easy one that he could have and still managed to end up so well.
The story is great, always interesting and very honest at the same time. Also being read by a voice I have known so well for 18 years, makes this book even better to listen to. Brian could do with less gravel in his voice, but it's just great to hear him read with the emotion he felt going through it all at the time.
The sceptic in me surfaces towards the end, but people believe in what they believe in, and for Brian to engage the two worlds of religion and metal in the way he does is very brave and shows he means every word.
I would recommend this book all the way.
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- Thermonuclear

Excellent, although a bit heavy on the religion

I am not a Korn fan, although I do like metal, and I am by no means at all religious. This book is,however, well worth the credit. Brian is a really interesting guy with experiences well worth hearing. An interesting insight into addiction, the music industry and a single dad trying to do right by his kid.

Really glad I picked it up. What I would say is if you are really offended by the pedalling rhetoric of a born-again this book is not for you. It starts quite light and gets thicker as he gets closer to the present day. Not something I find particularly relatable but I can't begrudge the guy because it's clearly had an amazing impact on his life.

Definitely worth the listen, it's gritty, honest and insightful. You don't need to be a Korn or Jesus fan to take something away from the book or be moved by it.
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- Paul Smith

Book Details

  • Release Date: 17-05-2016
  • Publisher: Thomas Nelson Publishers